thoughts

You are the books you read, the films you watch,
the music you listen to, the people you meet,
the dreams you have, the conversations you engage in.
You are what you take from these.
You are the sound of the ocean, the breath of fresh air,
the brightest light and the darkest corner.
You are a collective of every experience you have had in your life.
You are every single day. So drown yourself in a sea of knowledge and existence.
Let the words run through your veins and let the colours fill your mind.

Goodbye forever.

I kind of think that you and me, are starting to feel like we're not meant to be and usually you can keep my attention but now i'm starting to drift away. And honestly i can't keep doing what we've been doing faithfully, so maybe we should just call it quits today.
It's not your fault and it's not my fault, sometimes things just don't work out. Please don't call me, there's no talking. I don't want to work things out, what was broken yesterday, we can't argue it away and i shouldn't have to say this anymore. I got to say goodbye forever.

thoughts.

LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO... WAKE UP IN THE MORNING WITH REGRETS. SO LOVE THE PEOPLE WHO TREAT YOU RIGHT, FORGET ABOUT THE ONES WHO DON'T AND BELIEVE THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. IF YOU GET A CHANCE, TAKE IT. IF IT CHANGES YOUR LIFE, LET IT. NOBODY SAY THAT IT'D BE EASY, THEY JUST PROMISED IT WOULD BE WORTH IT.

Sleep.

I actually just like sleeping with someone. Not sex but actual sleep. Making love or hot sex is great but there's something about just curling up to someone and sleeping that sex just doesn't have. There's a quiet comfort to know that someone's there and you're just happy to be in each other's presence. It's a certain feeling of safety or that you belong with someone. I don't know how to describe it exactly but i hope some of you understand what i'm getting at. Maybe i'm too much of a romantic sometimes but i just don't think there is enough romance in the world anymore. i'll shut up now though.

feeling

I love it when i get that feeling. you know that feeling. The kind of emotion that just kinds of wraps itself around you after you've had a bad week. Or a bad month. Or a bad year. And it was hell, and maybe nobody even knows what you were going through or why you were so sad. Hell, maybe you don't even know either. But i'm not talking about the sadness. The feeling i'm in love with is the feeling of happiness when you finally feel like everything's okay again. When the world has righted itself and you can build yourself back up again before the next inevitable wave of sadness brings you down. The feeling where you think "I made it through, again. Bring it on, world."

Stop trying to "get it together." The biggest lie we're told when we're growing up is that soon as we're adults, as soon as we're in college, finish college, get that job, have that steady income, find that someone special, "find ourselves," find that perfect house, get that retirement fund, have those children, everything will fall into place. Here's a secret: it won't. Every new development in your life, good or bad, big or small, will come with its own very special set of challenges. The sooner you accept that, the better off you'll be. But the myth is perpetuated throughout life, perhaps now more than ever with happy status updates on Facebook and blushing bride/happy multi-tasking mommy blog posts. What these success stories don't tell your friend who is so over the moon with her new baby had to apply for food stamps. They don't tell you that your fantastic, involved professor struggles with depression. They don't tell you that your happily married friend still has nightmares about her abusive ex. They don't tell you the cousin who just got that jealousy-inducing job opportunity is thinking of breaking up with his boyfriend of 10 years. What closely interacting with people from all backgrounds on the internet for over a decade has taught me is that no one "has it together" in the way we think they do. So stop trying to have that as your goal, because you are just setting yourself up for massive failure.

say out loud.

If nothing else, i hope you know that i love you with every ounce of my being. I hope you realise your importance not only to me but to everyone who has been lucky enough to know you. I hope you know that when you're feeling down, i only ever strive for your happiness. I hope you remember that no matter what, i'm here for you and i fully intend on staying in your life for quite some time. I hope you recognise the fact that i appreciate and adore you without restraints, and that this will never change.