N: I just remember how it was back then.

A: What do you mean?

N: I mean things change. People change, you changed. We used to talk for hours and now i'm lucky to talk to you for a few minutes a day. You used to want to be with me and now you make it seem like you're always too busy. I remember the jokes, laughs, smiles we shared. And i doubt you remember any of that.

It's amazing how at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger. You will pass by them without a word. Without a single acknowledging look. This person, who once knew you so well, who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, is now walking right past you, seeing right through you.

Don't waste your time asking why such an amazing thing could happen to you, just let it happen. Don't doubt that you could be love, just let yourself be loved. If you don't believe you're worthy of anyone's time, then you won't be. Take yourself seriously and others will too. 'Why' is such a wasteful question. Why? Because that's the way it's supposed to be. That's the only answer you can have. Accept it.

i'm entirely grateful for you to be mine.

So there we go, I'm completely and utterly in love with you. I could be more cliche and say I don't understand what you've done to me - but truthfully, i know exactly what you've done/what you are doing. You're being you. I fallen for you, everything about you draws me in. I feel sick when the time comes where we have to part, because neither of us are ever sure when the next time we'll meet is, i miss you when you're not there and i crave your presence so often. I wish so much that we could be together more often; you're so perfect to me. I could sit for hours, remembering all the different times we've spent together. Every time I'd turn and catch you watching me with the corners of your lips curled, I didn't even know feeling like this was possible. Of course, now i do. But why did you choose me? It's often a thought that enters my mind. Don't get me wrong, i'm entirely grateful for you to be mind. I just wonder what you think when you see me. I love you so much, it hurts my head. Please don't leave, ever. C

be with you.

I know it's pathetic, but when i look at you, i just think of how much i'd like to cuddle with you. I think about how your skin would feel pressed against mine. I think about how beautiful and lovely you really are. I often find myself wondering if i'm alone in this. I fucking want you. But i don't know where you stand. All i want to do is be with you.

Faster end

Hello people,

Do you miss me? lol guess not. Well been busy, really busy.

Well currently i'm working now, at Intercontinental Hotel which is actually connected to bugis Junction as an interns for 6 months. Been working for 1 month plus, still got like 4 month plus to go. Faster end, so i can continue study my degree.

Birthday is coming another 1 more month to go, i want present!!! hehehe, been saving money for my birthday party. okay not really call birthday party, something like a mini event for my birthday. I need a cake and cupcakes. Like come more i like cupcakes okay lol.

And probably this would be my last clubbing for me, as boyfriend dislike me going there. Been breaking alot of promises but you know girls just wanna have some fun, not like grinding with guys. But enjoy the night, just the girls. Camwhoring, drinking and dancing like nobody business.. omg i miss the girls alr!!!!!

Now i'm sick, can't wake up for work. arghhh i hate been sick, everything i trying to do, just totally got no mood to do. Nicole Koh, can you please recover faster!!!!