1. That things

The realization that feelings never really completely go away. The truest form of feelings, they linger, invisibly carved into your skin, your heart. The eat you away inside. They burn into your mind, until one day you find yourself remembering scenarios that never really happened or creating non-existent events in your mind. And that's when the real hurt consumes you, in the moment that you realize that they never will. That things change, people and feelings and what-not, that things never really last forever, and that when they expire, your left ruined, tainted with feelings of nostalgia and pain, or with, something worse; yourself.

You are falling in love with...

If you are going to fall in love with me, it's only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how i'm a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when i'm with you, the way i'll text you in the mornings just telling you i hope you have a great day. You're falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things i say, and the way i blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.

quote one tree hill

At this moment there are 6,470,818,672 people in the world. Some are running scared. some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes... all you need is one.

Dear John

let it out

Sometimes, we want to say this to someone:

"You suck. You're an insensitive, inconsiderate, selfish,

cruel, thoughtless mean person who doesn't deserve

to be cared for by a person like me.

I wish you could just disappear,

so you couldn't hurt me anymore!"

But when we open our mouth to say it,

it comes out a little softer like:

"It's ok. I still love you."

She's strong because she knows what it's like to be weak.

She keeps a guard, because she knows what it's like to cry herself to sleep.