state of mind

hey bloggy,

She listening to Demi Lovato - Until You're Mine

My state of mind
Has finally got the best from me
I need you next to me

Sorry been very lazy to blog, hai
i don't know where to begin, well my mind is very confuse. Been alone inside my house, let me think of alot of things..
Im afraid to die cuz my heart sometimes felt very pain..

When you say u wanna start afresh yet i try to text u, you didnt reply.. hmph
guess ur start afresh is just wanna be friends ba.. sorry i think i think too much..

Nicole is very boring, nobody wanna go out with me humph!!! :(
i miss my colleague especially to this people like germaine, shi hui, johnson and ray..
hmmm i gotta go watch some taiwan drama liao...

luckily

hey bloggy,

she is listening to Ina - Suddenly

Today i didnt enjoy hai. Yesterday mahjong only win back $40 and luckily got leon beside me or else i lose more money.
A____ Now i understand ur feelings and i wont force u anymore. Today no mood to celebrate cny, i hope tml i will enjoy with may family.

Today came back from cny, my eyes super red. My mum ask why i cry but i didnt tell her i just told her that eat too much fried stuff...
My ex is rite, hai!

I just create a new facebook account. Dont ask me why i so suddenly created, someone force me de. Anyhow created for me, but nvm he give me password alr and dont worry _____ cuz i charged my password alr.. hmph.. don worry i will delete one day..

gong xi fa cai

hey bloggy,

She is listening to Cassie - I'm A Lover

Gong Xi Fa Cai

Thanks to my parents and my beloved sister for the angbao lol.. im damn full man..later around 11:40pm playing mahjong with lilly auntie...
I love my baby niece lah, so cute!!!
wah i cant wait for bobby angbao haha..
i think im too happy to blog alr, gotta go alr

not in a good mood.

hey bloggy,

She is listening to Secondhand Serenade - Like A Knife

Slept at 4 plus going 5 am in the morning then wake up around 10:15am.. i only slept like 4 or 5 hr, i cant sleep well. Thinking bout him and even dream bout him.. i also dont know why? And i even cry for no reason also.. watched accepted and driving lesson.
Then in the noon went leon house singing karaoke, sing until no voice. But i got drink alot of water and less talking now feeling better.
wanted to play mahjong later but i reject lilly auntie, told her my mummy take over my place. Not in a mood to play, scare i lose money..
alvan didnt replying my text and i think his not in a good mood also. I wanna help but _______ aiya nvm lah...

random pictures

karaoke

hey bloggy,

She is listening to Vanessa Hudgens - Don't Leave

Shit i got ucler again, this time is at my tongue fcked. Anyway im so damn lazy to write, but well today im super free to drop by lol..
Anyway yesterday was super high and fun lol. Germaine brought this wine and she choose that la, it was horrible omg. lol.
Even ray cannot tahan that smell lol, damn sour sia.. It is expired? haha
but oh well just drink loh, but i didnt drink alot lah but my cheeks super red..lol. Anyway im not a very good drinker, why everyone thinks im good drinker i only can say im not drunk can liao lol.. Me and germaine take alot of pictures, but super lazy to upload lol.
show u guys how red is my face lol...
Anyway i think germaine cannot tahan alr, she is drunk alr lol. So around 11 plus we left the shop, took train back to gombak. Meet up leon he laugh at me loh, so bad but slack awhile and then around 11:35pm walk back home. Then bath and stuff cuz im very hot, the heat inside my body very hot, so after bathing i on my lappie then online and watchin shows lol... Til 4am in the morning then sleep.
Why i drink wine liao, i wont fall asleep or feeling tired ar. Why all my friends can sleep, but why i cannot. i really dont know do wad sia..

Today woke up around 12:40pm in the noon, bath and stuff.. watched hong kong drama awhile then watch mtv: The hills. around 2 left my house, took train to city hall then process to suntec city for my trimming appointment. WTF lucky i book my appointment early sia, omg is like went i walk in to inuovi, it was a long queue outside.. At first i walk in everyone was staring at me like thinking why this girl never queue up want to cut queue ah...
haha u girls dumb dumb, i got BOOKED loh.. hmph!!!
haha ina was damn funny, she told me something damn funny. One rich auntie say i don need to booked just pay extra money i also can trim my eyebrow..
This auntie is crazy, so rich can go somewhere else wad, why must this shop leh.
damn weird ppl also have lah.. so sad for them have to queue until 6 plus then no other appointment wahaha.. told ina i miss her so much, now her boyfriend jealous lol

After trimming around 3:14pm, walk back to city hall mrt station then took train back to jurong east meet bestie..After meeting bestie we walk to imm have our lunch, guess wad is fastfood again lol.. ate long john!!!
After lunch around 4 plus we walk around imm then went cck not long. haha went to buy rabbit food.. then went to visited my friends wahaha...see i got come down de loh.. hmph say until i wont come down.. SEE PROPERLY i got come down de loh.. haha
anyway then around 7 we left the place cuz gonna rush back had dinner with my parents. Have fish head curry and chilli crab for dinner, is damn nice lah.. all my favourite food !! wahahaa =D for once my father never nag or anything, he suddenly ask me got money anot. Even though i dont but i don wanna use his money so i bluff him i got money.. my friend think im stupid, but my father money very hard to earn back. Fck kopitam never except nets, cuz my purse no cash or else i pay the dinner.. opposite my father pay.. for once i say thank you to him, i finally see he smile and very lame laugh -.-

Oh after dinner, i went leon house. He just put new karaoke inside his room, so went his house sing... omg they laugh i also laugh becuz my voice is super like barbie doll man.. guess wad i sing.. omg i love old song like 梁山伯与茱丽叶 haha
i sing the girl part, and leon say my voice more cute than her.. haha.. i really dont know lah.. i think i sound very wad le..
Is 12:02am and im stil awake, i wanna sleep but im not tired. stupid rite

i miss u alvan, do u miss me too?

boring

hey bloggy,

She is listening to Aly & Aj - Chemicals React

Today i was super late for work man, i have been late for work until very jia lat. Today i can say is si bei boring man, luckily got germaine and johnson or else i will die man.. germaine is getting super cute this days haha.. but she's leaving playcraft very soon, so is johnson and shi hui.
humph pangsei me alr, haha

I miss alot of ppl leh, wanna see them so badly. Especially alvan haha.. bobby engaged alr, is like so damn early haha.. cny is coming alr, i want many ang bao lol..

shop til i drop

hey bloggy,

She is listening to Hilary Duff - Reach Out

Like a prayer, your touch can take me there
In my mind, you and me in a secret affair
Oh boy you're killing me and you don't even know it
Try to hold back but I can't control it

So, I'm steppin' to ya', skip the "How ya doin'?"
Grab your hand and pull you closer to me yeah
Out the door we're slippin', then we start to kissing
Boy you're invited to my fan-ta-ta-sy

Yesterday night i watched 2 online show hehe. House Bunny and First Daughter haha..then around 4am in the morning sleep..

Woke up around 1:20pm today, so damn late .. so i went to prepare and even rush to the salon to get my hair done.. then around 3:15pm meet lela at jurong east mrt, ok i don't know why i wanna say this la.. i think zakiyah is action, seriously can text me until so sweet. saw me also don't wanna say hi...but whatever.
Anyway after meeting her, we went town had lunch at hotdog factory. I had chicken baked rice again wahaha, ok i admit lah i love the food ok.. is super duper nice loh...
so like after lunch, we walk to taka shop around then process to wisma. Me and lela brought a top at forever 21, is hell cheap and duper nice lol...
Then off to fareast plaza wahaha brought another nice dress at one store. again with no name lol.. but is damn cute. even brought cosmetic too...

Then around 9 we took train back home, reach gombak had dinner with leon and haroy haha.. seafood again...
omg my ex jason young text me so sudden.. he change new number liao, his working at amk hub but too bad u got ur own wife and kids..
sian i suddenly think bout the past, so sad and cried just now.

Good luck baby for test tml!!! jia you!!!

feeling weird

hey bloggy,

She is listening to Shontelle Ft Akon - Stuck With Each Other

5am in the morning sleep, then wake up around 2pm..wahaha i cant sleep more longer leh, but luckily i never overslept also cuz i need to go westmall ocbc bank update my book. so around 2:40pm took train to bukit batok then process to ocbc bank and update, after update took train to tiong bahru meet my parents, buy CNY stuff.. Then my father suddenly treat me very nice, he give me $200 to buy my new yr clothing leh. Is damn weird loh, i didnt even tell him that im broke or something loh. He just give me and ask me buy nice nice stuff sia...

i cant possibly ask my friend out in this hour ma, plus some alr have plan and some still working. So i ask my parents come along, see im very guai loh.. This yr going to turn 20 and still going out with parents, lol...
Then me and my parents took train to somerset, went singtel awhile then off to cineleisure then slack at cprepes & cream for ice cream. After that around 5 plus we walk to fareast plaza, and i told my parents to wait for me at level 1 cuz i dont think they wanna shop with me. But my mom want to follow so me and my mum shop around fareast plaza. . .
Went hurs and i brought two different ruffle top lol.. so is like after 40% discount is around $68 lol.. Another 2 is some tiny shop cant remember wad store alr lol...
i still left his money, i think i shop tml then lol...
Had dinner with my parents, i feel damn weird loh. Suddenly for today we never quarrel, as in i always go out with him, he will definately dulan or giving me attitude. But i never ask him why he so nice for me for just once loh..
But for once im happy, cuz i almost everyday cry bout some stuff.. Keeping inside for so long, erm i dont need to explain so much here.. Cuz i dont think is important at all...

My ex called today, guess who kelvin. He suddenly called also, i dont know why i say this lah but why suddenly everyone treating me so nice, what i do sia can anyone tell me?
Im very confuse and feel damn weird..

i miss alvan !! wish him good luck for his monday test =)

edited

edited

i dont know why u sound so angry, i know im too late to wish u but i dont think u need to hear it anymore. but i wish u happy belated birthday then.. Cuz i was just entertain you but i guess u think is a "____" hai, then im sorry.
all my friends is leaving the job alr, should i?

but i need the money cuz this month i totally cannot see any money at all, still owe a few ppl money.. i will try to pay u back, i promised...

supper again

Hey bloggy,

She is listening to Serena Ryder - Weak in the Knees

Would you mind if i walked over and i kissed your face,
in front of all your friends.
Would you mind if i got drunk and said, i wanna take you home to bed,
Oh would you change your mind?

I'm weak in the knees for you,
but I'll stand if you want me to.
My legs are strong, and I'll move on,
but hunny i'm weak, in the knees, for you.

The song is damn nice man, lol.. working is so so haha..but after work is fun lol. drink beer with germaine and ray haha.. ray playing fifa 08 then me and germaine camwhoring lol. but i can see germaine is high alr haha.. her cheek all redness come out alr lol..
then around 10:35pm we close the shop, qiqi went home then ray and his friend went mac. Then me took train to gombak meet up with leon, shawn and jun xiang had supper with them. Had porridge and other dishes loh.. Then around 12 i walk back home, bath and stuff then online. wahaha i just completed psp - dynasty warrior 2 omg!! In just 2 days i finish up the whole games lol..

Now is alr 1:22am and im still awake update my blog and downloading movies and musics lol...tml have to go to the bank and update my stupid book cuz from dec until now i havent update.. cuz my book full alr.. fck rite..
update the pictures tomorrow.. nite..

Random pictures

Finish edited:- at around 11:57pm, ok i gotta go sleep alr. Tml working. Nite

ps: that guy here is my colleagues johnson, the guy i also disturb him haha but he also help me download games..xoxo

transporter 3 rock

hey bloggy,

She is listening to Katharine Mcphee - I Know What Boys Like

I didnt go out today cuz not feeling well so i try to stay at home. Anyway i watch 3 shows today:-
- Mr. Magoriums Wonder Emporium, Transporter 3 and Passengers.

Must go watch transporter 3 is super nice !!!

Anyway working tomorrow so sian, i miss germaine and disturbing johnson lol..

im not feeling well

hey bloggy,

She is listening to Boys Like Girls - I Told You So

before i meet you,
i never knew what it was like
to look at someone & smile for no reason.

Anyway been very lazy and tired of blogging, well anyway today im very free to type. haha while waitin for the show to downloading finish xoxo
i ate wrong food just now, and i vomit all the water that i drink. Now i think my stomach is empty cuz all the food that i ate all shit out and the water i drink all vomit out.. Sound very disgusting rite, well i think im not feeling well man... I miss him but his damn cold to me but i can understand lah, it takes time. Dont worried i know u're trying..

Well let start from friday on the 9 Jan 2009 ba.

Woke up around 12 plus bath and stuff then went salon.. Then around 2:40pm took train to somerset control station meet may..Then was on phone with jun wei, while may reach we process to hereen.. Had lunch at Shokudo and is her brother working place haha, see we eat got any discount haha.. the food is nice but for me i dont really like the tomato rice, it taste damn horrible. Oops i think i say too much, but well for me i don like the rice ba, thought is fried rice or something. I even ate my favourite salmon hehe, and that's free!!! even had chawamushi is so damn nice lah.. omg is damn ex ex. 2 person eat $75 ++ is super duper ex man, well we went up to the tattoo shop, accompany may cuz she wanna buy another piercing but she decided not to buy so we went cineleisure cuz feel like watching movies. So we decided to watch Bedtime Stories, oh there is something u need to know dont ever go watch Ong Bak 2 is the worse movie ever..
After movie around 7 plus, we decided to go fareast plaza. Shop around the place nothing much to buy also guess im broke thats why nothing much to buy.
Half way not feeling well, so we decided to go home. Took train back to gombak, pei my mom have her dinner so i ate abit. After dinner walking back home, online awhile.. then watch She's The Man haha is a online movie lol...Then around 3 something in the morning then i went to sleep.

10 Jan 2009,

Woke up around 1 plus, watching csi. Then around 3 plus took train to plaza sing pass something to my brother, then walk 15 min to reach cineleisure. Half-way walking to cineleisure i saw ricardo haha damn cannot believe it man, his so cute lol. Why i still think his cute .. well his my "_____". lol

While waiting for alvan, i went foodcourt slack. After he reach we went to buy ticket at level 4 cuz basement 1 damn alot of ppl lol, so we decided to watch Seven Pounds. Is only 5 something, so we went taka shop awhile, then process to hereen. Then around 7 plus we walk back to cineleisure took lift up to level 9, start watchin the show. Okay erm that room not very smelly i guess lol, cuz usually level 9 the room is always very smelly room lol..
Movie end around 9 plus and alvan is tired so we decided to leave, called shawn whether they wanna go eat or something and they were at bukit timah so i ask whether anyone is around woodland or dover, and amber is at around dover area so i took train, then drop down at dover mrt station.. haha but is not amber fetch me is ryan -.-
Reach bukit timah around 10, had carrot cake. Half-way eating i damn not feeling well i feel like vomit out the food sia, i think is food poisoning but i pray very hard hoping i will be fine and keep saying dont think too much nicole koh.
So the guys send me home, while walkin back home i try not to let my parents know. Try to act til very normal, while they sleep i drink a warm water though i will feel better but i vomit out the water. I cried hoping nothing is gonna happen lah, i really think too much rite. i was damn scare loh..

Hope tomorrow i will be fine!! praying very hard...i will upload the pictures soon..

off

hey bloggy,

She is listening to Aaron Carter - I'm Gonna Love You Forever

Finally i get my off day, today i woke up damn early man. Cuz i have been late for work this week man..
Ok thanks to qixiang for paying my money, and i cant believe it even his own brother don know where is him. I wont care bout you anymore, i will just move on..
What u just did to me and ur other ex hai..

Anyway i like Mr A now. I really got though of meetin him tml, but i fully booked by may very long time haha.. i miss this babe so much.. cant get to see her!!!
i miss germaine too!! i miss listening to her ipod song, cuz the radio is siao ding dong alr lol if u know wad i mean lol...

I really need to save money man, thanks johnson for the nasi lemah even though i keep disturbing him and make him very paisei but u know im kiddin with you rite and i think the ink tattoo looks good in you really lol...

slacking

hey bloggy,

She is listening to Teairra Marie ft Pleasure P - Hunt 4 You

Slept at 5am in the morning, after watching my online movies hehe.. i watch 2 movies before i go to bed..
1) Death Race
2) Happy Feet
So nice lah, the death race is damn nice but abit er xing lah....

Today woke up around 12 plus, watchin tv. then around 2:30pm meet lela at bukit batok mrt station, then after meeting each other we took the train together. Then drop down at bugis, had pizza at pasta mania ..
Omg we are damn full man, so we shop around bugis. didnt went bugis village cuz is super crowded and see got so many people we also headache... so we decided to go city hall, walk 15 to 20 min to reach raffles city shopping centre... then shop around the place, even we kate spade but nothing much.. omg i brought a purse at River Island, is super nice and is hell cheap only $25 lol..
Then we decided to find some place to slack, haha we went esplanade.. haha im like very bored, using lela camera, taking pictures haha...
Then around 8 we decided to take bus, i actually DONT take bus.. but since i so lazy to walk until there, we decided to take a bus home. Reach home around 9 plus tabao laksa home share with my mummy cuz she wanna eat too....
Then online awhile watchin tv.... hai sian tml working lah...

ps: i miss navla haha.. (^.^)

movies xoxo

hey bloggy,

She is listening to Beyonce - Halo

3Th January 2009

When i sleep, i dream of you,
&& when i wake, i long to hold you in my arms.
If anything, our time apart has only made me more certain
that i want to spend my nights by your side,
and my days with your heart.
+ nights in rodanthe by nicholas sparks

Yesterday slept at 4am, after watchin You Got Served. The show is damn nice lah, remind me bout the past with my group of girls. We always dance under the block and at esplanade lol.
Woke up around 11 something, like so damn early loh cuz too noisy alr. I cant sleep well le haix, i got very big eye panda alr =(
oh well im ugly, nvm also.....
Have lunch at westmall around 1:40pm, with jun sheng. After lunch at the foodcourt we slack at coffee bean, talking awhile. I'm aiming for Samsung Pixon, is 8 mega pixes. Sound very cool loh lol. Then around 3 something me and jun sheng took train then drop down at bukit gombak haha finally someone stay around bukit gombak lol xoxo
Went for my salon appointment at 3:40pm, having a hair and a head massage wah my headache all feel better liao after the head massage.

Then around 5 plus, walk back home online awhile. Then around 7 i left the house, took train to somerset meet up alvan, wah his damn late man. So i went to buy the ticket first, watchin ip man. after buying the ticket, i took lift up to level 5 then had chicken bake rice at hotdog factory.
so like we reach around 8:35pm like that, he call and ask me where am i, i keep told him at level 6, omg paisei is at level 5. One guy told me is level 5 lol.. so i message him lol
After dinner, we just shop around cine. Then around 9:15pm we walk in to the cinema, but the movie is alr started, damn alot of people man.
The show is damn nice lah, lol got some part is very disgusting lah, the blood and the hand and legs broken wah .. i cannot tahan sia, like i can feel the pain man lol...
The movie end around 11 plus, i keep wondering should i give him the surprise leh.. i scare he push me away or something le.. then while taking the cab, i give him A ____ .
lol i think i took forward liao rite, don noe lah.. but the taxi uncle very funny..

Taxi uncle: wah give bf a ____ ar..
me: yeah, good wad
taxi uncle: (he laugh) very handsome ar
me: haha uncle r u gay?
taxi uncle: wad gay, im married
me: uncle i was kidding with u lah..

after half way the road, i ask the uncle again.

me: uncle ah, $18 enough to reach my house anot.
taxi uncle: yeah enough, why?
me: cuz i scare i need to wash ur car, scare i have not enough cash ma.
taxi uncle: ( he laugh) haha u very cute hor..
me: ps ps, uncle dont say le i will shy..

i was laughing, damn zi high loh lol, like siao ding dong hahaha... reach home around 11:51pm,
then rush back home cuz i scare i kana lock up then i cannot go in.. wah my mummy so good loh, she wait for me leh, haha not really lah.. she was watching tv, then she ask me whether im hungry anot, then she sound like she is hungry like that so i told her i havent eat loh..
See i very good hor, pei my mummy eat supper leh...and guess wad i eating roti prata again, then around 12:40pm we walk back home, bath and stuff..then online..
Tml going out with lela !! i miss u girl!!!

Pictures for 1st Jan '09

Hey bloggy,

She is listening to Shop Boyz - Party Like A Rock Star

Stupid shaun put airplane, sleep like a pig.. humph.. today i went westmall looking at the phone, thinking which one to buy.. my phone siao siao alr, i NEED a new phone!!!

I miss lela, leon, shawn and may i wanna go out !!! i will blog later, gotta go out alr..

Happy new year

hey bloggy,

I think im kinda late saying Happy New year rite lol, haha internet having problem man must complaint to my brother. Anyway working nowadays very tired and sleepy, been very late sleeping and almost late for work almost everyday. Boss brought wine as a xmas present, hmm not yet open lol.. cuz i don feel like drinking it today lol, i just finish editing my new pictures taken today 1st Jan 2009 haha, qiqi is so cute lah!! By the way thanks for the Mcfurry!! hehe

Sorry shi hui last minute got something on, pai sei, pai sei lol..
been havin supper with friends i think im going to be fat man, but today i check my weight wahaha im still 44kg wah so damn lucky lol. Anyway went bank to deposited my cheque and fck i cannot update my book, cuz holiday fck. hai

i miss Navla haha!! really really xoxo
cant wait for sat hehe, i havent watch bedtime stories. So many people told me quite nice, some say until very nice!! arhhh i wanna watch lah,
Oh thank kelvin for the thai song, omg AOF Pongsak is so cute man!! His songs is so touching, i only understand abit only lol.
i miss germaine too!! sian tuesday then can get to see her, cuz monday she working at cwp. No one can pei wo act cute at work lol..

It 3am and im stil awake, i should get some sleep later or else i cannot go out =( !!
Anyway today me and germaine take quite alot of pictures lol, hehe even borrow her sunglasses lol, damn big sia and very loose. When i wanna wear rite, keep falling man, maybe she got big head i got small head lol. and when she laugh for no reason we also start laugh even my mummy thinks she very cute loh!!! wahaha i love working with them man lol..
I will upload the pictures tml, very lazy alr.. lol =P