school, interns?

i have been thinking a lot lately, thinking bout my new path. Since i'm turning 22 this year, and i know i'm not getting any younger anymore. Things change, or maybe i could just say everything has gotta change. Been interviewing for my internship and i think i got accepted to this restaurant called 1-Altitude. I have to admit the view is beautiful and i know i haven't start work, i know i will enjoy the job and i hope i will get along with new people.

I may lose this person in the future, but when i say i love you, i'm not lying. Because this is real and my love to you is not fake. Since we are not together now, i know i won't have time with this kinda relationship because i gonna be super busy with my life, as in i'm working and i won't have so much time to spend with.

I really want to continue pursuing my degree and get a real job, as i say before i'm not getting any younger anymore. Maybe after 2 years time, i will have a proper job? shall see?

this song is for u

Im just listening to the clock go ticking

I am waiting as the time goes by

I think of you with every breath I take

I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine

Youre all I see

In everything

I just want to hold you

I just want to kiss you

I just want to love you all my life

I normally wouldnt say this

But I just cant contain it

I want you here forever, right here

By my side

All the fears you feel inside

And all the tears youve cried

Theyre ending right here

Ill heal your heart and soul

Ill keep you oh so close

Dont worry Ill never let you go

Youre all I need

Youre everything

I just want to hold you

I just want to kiss you

I just want to love you all my life

I normally wouldnt say this

But I just cant contain it

I want you here forever, right here

By my side

No one else would ever do

I got a stubborn heart for you

Call me crazy but its true

I love you

I didnt think that it would be

You who made it clear to me

Youre all I need

I just want to hold you

I just want to kiss you

I just want to love you all my life

I normally wouldnt say this

But I just cant contain it

I want you here forever, right here

By my side

SOUL

Friday night i was at soul because i was on a guest list, thanks to my friend Sean. He help me ask his friend. Was with my awesome friends, suppose to have like more than 5 people because i can bring in 10 boys or girls in for free but too bad for some people can't make it. Oh well is okay, there is always a next time. :)

Manage to ask Joseph for discount for the bottle of Martell, $205 after discount! Hell expensive, i mean compare to Holiday Inn is confirm less than $100 bucks. Well i think i'm like the first person to get drunk, and i started vomiting like twice. I can't control it at all, it just come out. Thanks to the love who is taking care of me, without you i think i'm super gone already and i want to apology to the people that came. Sorry that i left first and didn't really enjoy my night, promise to make it up to you guys again. Wednesday phuture!! Ladies night, girls we shall enjoy the night again :)

PS: Sometimes, I’m afraid that I never want to let you go. Because I’m afraid if I do, no one will love me like you did. And I feel so selfish for thinking that. I want to be happy for you but I can’t. And that makes me think that some part of me is really twisted and warped inside.

pictures speak the thousand words.

whatever

Guess i know why already, i know why he don't wanna hear me out cause he already cheated on me too. Go club just to drink i don't believe at all, thanks for spending 8th month with me or maybe less than 8 months cause you have been flying around and when you need me, you call me and when you don't need me, you don't bother to call me. I have decided to move on without him, and i'm still young. I still got a long journey ahead and i know i did the right thing.

I use to love you but i don't think you do cause i mean if you really love a person, you will cool down and at least giving me a chance to explain to you. I know i don't deserve a second chance cause i admit i did hurt you, cause i am too. But since you already cheated on me, there is no point already. I should just give up on you, and one more thing i don't go for guys who are rich. I want to have my own job, have my own saving too.

I love you, C. I cannot believe is over between us. Sorry that i hurt you, i'm hurt too. I cannot control my tears at all, i'm weak and everything i say now, you won't believe me anymore. i'm really sorry, please let me talk to you.

I did something bad and stupid. i'm gonna lose both and i knew it cause it happening to me right now. I know i don't deserve a second chance and whatever i say you won't believe me, right now.

You can't totally blame me, you were away for so long and when i needed you, you was not there for me. So what if you giving me freedom, when i want someone to talk too, are you even there? No, you are not there and who the hell am i gonna talk too, no one. Fuck my tear, keep making me crying non stop, arghhh i hate my life cause is damn sucky.

Just scold me whatever you want, cause you won't forgive me already. Fuck i don't wanna write anymore, cause it hurting so bad and i don't like the feeling at all. knnccb!!!!!!