Merry belated Christmas to everyone, gosh i didn't have time for everything. School break is about to be over, means stress is coming my way. I always have thoughts that i want to say but i am going to keep it short.
We haven't spoken for a really long time, and every day that we don't, i try and act okay about it. I want to feel okay about it, but i can't. Putting on this act just isn't working for me because there was too much left unsaid. I don't know how you are, how you feel, or how long it's going to be before we talk again. Will we miss Christmas? New Year? Our birthdays? Will we soon learn to be okay with this, and then just tumble past all these special moments without saying anything at all? I'm so scared of that happening. I'm scared I'll never be able to even look you in the eye because everything we need to say is hopelessly hanging in the silence that occurred the last time we just stopped. I'm so scared that i'm going to miss it all.
