I think i don't look like myself when i'm in the office, like seriously speaking. Because i'm more or less on a vintage kinda person and when i'm in the office, i look like some office lady who looks more mutual. Okay i think i'm abit confuse here, as i don't really know how to describe it but i really don't look like myself and the way i dress from vintage and to like a office lady now. I'm not those girls who loves heels and dresses, i don't wear that often and maybe that's for only clubbing then i wear it. if not i would never wear out cause i just think is not me at all.

Now i am crazy over of heels and dresses, to work or to party. But i really enjoy working at Intercontinental Hotel, i am currently working as a human resource department and mostly my job is doing all the paper work and helping my another colleague too. I really don't mind helping cause i think time pass faster when i'm doing something if not i would be bored to the max.

Today i went shopping with Vicky, and i brought alot of dresses and 2 heels. All the items that i brought is BLACK. Oh, i don't like wearing black too. Really not my style at all, i love colorful tops and bottom. Why my company only allow navy, grey or black, why can't be like other company. Any colors also can. Now currently my wardrobe is black, is like the whole range is in black now. I don't know what to do, if after 6 month of internship loh because i don't think i would wear out anymore.

hopelessly inlove

I want to wear your sweatshirt to bed, watch scary movies with you, talk on the phone until sunrise, sneak out at night to look at the stars with you, play your favorite video game, make you watch chick flicks, kiss you in the rain, go on walks with you, laugh until i can't breathe, hold hands, build a fort and have a snowball fight, sit in front of the fireplace and talk about life. I want to fall hopelessly in love with you.

speak up

It's not easy to state the reason why you fall out of love. Some might think it's just an excuse. Some might actually not believe. Some will blame you. Some might even get mad at you. What they don't see is the fact that it hurts even more to hurt someone who doesn't deserve to be hurt especially when you can't actually state the reason why you've fallen out of love.

And well...

One of the best feelings in life is rediscovering a song you once used to love, with hearing this song you instantly feel the same exact emotions you once felt every time you play it. You even kind of get a flashback and see yourself sitting in your room singing along to this song on replay for hours, and it's only then when you start to wonder how you could possibly forget about this song. How you could even grow apart from something you used to cherish so much.

When i say i love you, i'm not lying.

When you text me my day instantly gets better, when I'm with you I can't help but smile non-stop. You make me so happy, whether you say something sweet, or if you just wave. Everything you do makes me smile, I just love you and I really do.

This is really goodbye

From M to M~

Where did you go, the you who just passed me by and left?

Are you doing fine, at a place without me by your side?

Hoping you'll come back, the times I've waited for you

I'll let it go now, I'll forget you now

The beautiful times we had, they're all memories now

The tears i shed when i missed you like crazy

Hoping you'll come back, time stood stagnant

I'll let you go and leave now, goodbye.

Couldn't you find it, the road that leads back to me?

Should I wait a little while more, should I wait here a little longer?

Hoping you'll come back, I waited all this while

I'll let it go now, I'll end it for real.

My love for you that i held on so tightly, is slowly dissipating

The me that went crazy missing you, is gradually changing

Hoping you'll come back, time has stood stagnant

I should erase it all now, for real.

My love, it ends right here, this never-ending yearning

Stuck in my throat, I couldn't say it

Those heartbreaking words of parting

All my beautiful memories of you, it's leaving me right now

Like falling tears, my love is slowly dissipating

The me that went crazy missing you, is gradually changing

Hoping you'll come back, stood stagnant

I should erase it now, for real

Should erase it now,

I should forget you now, goodbye.

shall say pictures time ^^

Gosh!! who is this girl? Like duh, my bestfriend lah. I love this girl to the max, i can tell her everything and we abit crazy sometimes. We got the same taste in everything like clothes and food. We know each other almost 9 years man, and we are like the happygirl89. :)

oh ps: that's not her kid, is her niece lol and she 7 this year. I know right, she is cute!!!

I think i got the job at Intercontinental Hotel which is located at Bugis. Working under Human resource department, is gonna be tough job but i promise i'm gonna push myself. Ain't quiting the job, i know in this world, there is no such thing is easy job and money don't come from the air. Working 9am to 6pm for 5 days per week, should be okay. I mean awesome, i know i'm gonna push it through.

I am broke seriously, broke until i can't go out at all and i have use my parents money. But i know they won't give me anymore because i'm turning 22 this year and i'm jobless. I'm not rich at all, i stay in a hdb flat and i envy my cousin because she got a huge house and she don't have to work at all. Parents work in a overseas bank and $2000 for them is nothing but for me $2000 is alot to me. But this money won't last forever, is always safe to have a proper job that can stable your life.

wtf, when am i saying all this. As if got people will come to my blog and read.

I don't know when i'm gonna finish my internship, i just know that after 6 months. I want to travel, i need a gate-away with someone and enjoy my life for awhile, then go back to continue my degree. I have a whole lots of thinking to do. ok fine, fml.

honest

To be honest, i still think about you. I always wonder how you're doing or if you're okay. Sometimes, i wonder if you ever think about me but i doubt it. I never really stopped liking you, i only gave up because you did. But just because we don't talk anymore, doesn't mean i don't care anymore.

I wanna be the girl

I wanna be the girl you stay up all night talking to. The one who you can't stop thinking about. The one who can make you laugh so hard you cry. The one who you can talk to about your problems and trust fully. The one who can make you feel better after a tough situation. The one who can brighten your day. The one you can be yourself with. The one who understands you. Yeah, i wanna be her.

What did i do again and why everyone angry at me. I really trying my best to change, and i did. People say that "no action, only just talking". I really want to prove to you that everything i said is true, i will prove to you. Sometimes i break my promises, well i admit i cant compare a person who has a job and i don't. I still ask my parents for allowance but not often anymore and i'm not rich. Seeing you, just makes me happy for some reason but what does it mean because i really don't know. God is not helping at all, the more i do just makes everyone even angry at me more.

Why do i have this emotional thing inside me, that always makes me so weak and i mean i just can't control my tear, i just makes me cry for hours till i have swollen eyes. Sometimes, just because i don't cry doesn't mean my heart won't. Just because i come off as strong doesn't mean there nothing wrong.

powerhouse with the awesome ppl on wed.

I want to learn to start cooking or baking for the person i love but who will kindly help me because i'm afraid of fire, i'm afraid that i will get burned or the food taste like shit. I want to prove that i willing to try even thought i'm scared of this and that but who will willing to help me.

I want to cook something he likes and to prove that i'm not just talking here but here i am proving to you that i<3u.

people msn me or call me please! i'm gonna go read my books now. bored

i'm stress

Wah i'm very stress now, because i quit the current job which was located at 1 Raffles place. Have u heard of 1-Altitude gallery bar, past few days i was working there and the manager is not satisfy me while i'm working and it makes me even more stress because i'm new and i have so much things to learn and remember. Working as a host was not easy, seriously have no experience at all. I admit i'm slow learner and i get emotional sometimes. First day of job was super nervous, people there are nice but they talk to themselves as if i'm transparent to them and i'm little hurt and i didn't really enjoy working there. Boy came fetch me from work, we didn't go home, we end up playing lans at chamber til 5am. Boy send me home, knowing that his tired yet he still come to fetch me. Thanks really appreciate.

My fourth day didn't go so well, i mean when the manager not around, i was working damn smoothly and even the staff there think so too. But when the manager come spot check me, i suddenly get super nervous till i forget everything, and it makes me weak for no reason. He start saying things that i really cannot take it and i almost cry but i didn't, forcing myself not to cry because working is tough and i need to be strong. But when he say the word "i'm not suitable for this job, maybe i might let go of you". This makes me sound like i'm useless in this company, i mean i really did try my best and seriously i'm trainee here, there is so much things to learn yet so little time. I tell myself today would be my last day, i should just end tonight and not coming back the next day. Like seriously, what is the point of coming back since the manager say it so clearly that i'm not "Suitable". Means they cannot wait for a trainee that long enough. He always like to compare me with a Filipino and the feeling suck big time.

So here i am jobless, maybe i should just take the final project because it end faster than interns. 3 months for final project, then compare to 6 months interns. Boy and my dad think i should just take final project but friend thinks interns better because i get to gain experiences. So how, i got this weekend to think about and monday i have to let the school know already. i'm really damn confuse now!!!!!!!