being positive

Being a positive person doesn't mean you have to be bubbly, chipper and happy 24/7. It is okay to feel down. You are only human and it is part of the human experience. Don't suppress these feelings when they come. Acknowledge them, feel them and accept them as a chapter in your journey. You can't fast forward through parts of the movie just like you can't fast forward through the bad parts in your life and expect it all to make sense. Keep watching and you'll learn to understand why certain experiences were significant to the overall story. Being positive isn't the absence of pain. Find meaning to the struggle and see the light in the distance no matter how far away it may seem at the time. Have faith those bad feelings are just temporary visitors.

Confessing something that's been on your mind lifts a huge weight off of you.

The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past and recognize that everyday won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember it's only in the black of the night, you can see the stars, and those stars will lead you back home. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble, to fall, because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you? The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination.

All I needed to know...

I needed to know that i meant something, anything to you. But what i got was nothing. Absolutely nothing. And it's funny the things you realize when someone walks away. At first, you feel as though it's your fault. Feeling like nothing, so close to falling apart. And then, in time, you come to the realization that you did nothing wrong. That it's his loss, that you are so much better than the boy who didn't ever care. You live and learn, and that's how it is.

Dear No One

I like being independent
Not so much of an investment
No one to tell me what to do
I like being by myself
Don't gotta entertain anybody else
No one to answer to

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when its cold
Got that young love even when we're old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you're out there I'd swear to be good to you
But I'm done lookin', for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You'll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song

I don't really like big crowds
I tend to shut people out
I like my space, yeah
But I'd love to have a soul mate
And God'll give him to me someday
And I know it'll be worth the wait

So if you're out there I swear to be good to you
But I'm done lookin, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You'll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song

Just saying.

Get over him. He's not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yeah you loved him, i know that. And i know you just can't see yourself with anyone other than him, i get that. I've been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah your gonna see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, cause straight up; its gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows your watching. He knows its killing you; that's why he will do it. Don't let him get to you because that, well that's exactly what he wants. Don't give him what he wants. He doesn't even deserve it. So what if he doesn't talk to you; do you honestly wanna be friends with an asshole like him anyways? Thing is i know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, do you really wanna hear that? No, Screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry. Trust me. When he finally see you with some other guy who's not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you, the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. And don't you sit there thinking he won't be sorry i know you are. But i guarantee you now; he will be sorry. So don't go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know your never gonna get. or that Skype you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. he like to pretend he does not see you online, he does it out of spite just because he knows its killing you. when he walks past you in the hallways he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he will do that cause he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. i'm not gonna lie to you, it will hurt. it'll hurt a lot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. its all gonna hurt. knowing your not the girl that's making him smile. knowing your not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. knowing your not the face on his background of his phone anymore. knowing if he hasn't already he will delete the album of pictures of you he has on his phone. knowing you won't be spending every single moment possible with him. knowing there's not gonna be no more last night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. and you know what, today, tomorrow, next week, months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping its him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. but trust me; he's got to much pride. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn't tell you. your soon gonna realize he doesn't care about you anymore and he won't be the first person you call when your upset. he won't be the one to put that smile back on your face and yeah its gonna hurt. its gonna hurt a lot. But you know what your gonna do? Your gonna hold your head up. Your gonna show him your better than him and you don;t need him in your life. Your gonna prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life letting you do and that you never really needed him anyways.

just saying

I love unmade beds. i love when people are drunk and crying and cannot be anything but honest in that moment. I love the look in people's eyes when they realize they're in love. I love the way people look when they first wake up and they've forgotten their surroundings. i love the gasp people take when their favorite character dies. i love when people close their eyes and drift to somewhere in the clouds. i fall in love with people and their honest moments all the time. i fall in love with their breakdowns and their smeared makeup and their daydreams. Honesty is just too beautiful to even put into words.

Photos for this week.